My adventures in discovering my sensuality continue. Occasionally at Mark’s request, I would dance for him. He always seemed to enjoy watching me, but I was never comfortable and felt awkward. My insecurities about my body always magnified. Poor Mark would have to waste his time reaffirming that I was attractive.
Mark finally took matters into his own hands. Last November, he found an exotic dance class for me to take. What a HUGE difference it has made in my self confidence. I was signed up to take Stripper 101.
This class helped me so much about acceptance of my body. I almost immediately walked a little taller (wearing 3 ˝” heels helped also). I would come home from class all excited to “show my stuff” for Mark. The pole is a blast and is very addictive.
3-4 classes later, the instructor asked if any of the “newbies” wanted to participate in a “recital” that takes place at a local strip club. Mostly family and friends attend, but the club is open to the public. Each woman dances to 2 songs and undresses to her comfort level. We’re to leave our panties on. I had to pick a stage name for myself. Obviously, I decided to dance. I went out and bought shoes and picked out an outfit. I chose to wear a bra, panties, very short half slip and thigh highs. The evening of the recital I was terrified. I was the next to the last newby to dance. Everyone that had danced ahead of me had done well. When my turn cam up and the music began I initially “froze”. I thought for sure I was going to fall off of my 6” platform shoes and disgrace myself. Suddenly, I thought I’ve got nothing to lose. I plastered a smile on my face, took a deep breath and twirled around the pole. After that, I had a great time. I winked and teased my audience. I had a great shock value also. I was the only woman in my group of dancers that had pierced nipples. It’s always nice to have a gimmick that makes people remember you. My instructor said she couldn’t believe what she had seen and thought it was “cool”. She now refers to me as “Nipples” (possible stage name?). At the end of my set I was $49.00 richer. Not bad for 6 minutes of having fun. The funds are going towards the purchase platform boots. I can hardly wait until the next “recital”.
The pole was so much fun that I decided that I decided I wanted one of my own. The problem was…where to put it. One of the other students told me about a web site that sell take down poles. Mark ordered a pole for me and it showed up here on Valentine’s Day.! I’m so eager to start using it. He said I had to write my BLOG before he would install it. Needless to say, I’m getting my “homework” done so I can go play with my pole.
The benefits of this class have been amazing. I feel so much better about myself. I don’t have to have a “perfect young” body. I have beauty that is all my own. Every one of the women that danced that night was beautiful and walked away that night knowing this. I’m happier with myself. It shows with the way I interact with others. People who haven’t seen me for several weeks mention that I look really good and ask what I have done for myself. The usual question is, have I lost weight (I haven’t darn it). Usually, I tell the person about my class and what it has done for me; other times, I give a non-answer and just smile.